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I have papers coming up, so of course Im going to waste my time instead and post on LJ! It's been a while. Have you missed me? I'm sure you have. And all the wonderfully dull things that happen in my life! Lol.

I am actually also killing time while my things are in the dryer. I only had a 2 pound coin and a 1 pound coin and the wash cycle costs £1.80 and the dryer 60p. Luckily if you put in £2 on the washing machine you get the SUPER CYCLE! So I had that, and now my clothes in the dryer get 80 minutes instead of 45, which is nice. Especially if the dryer doesn't work. It's like a game of Russian Roulette in the laundry room when it comes to the dryers. I would say about half don't dry your clothes and some you can't push the buttons, so you end up wasting your money. I hope it works because that was the last of my cash. Literally. All there is in my wallet now is a 10p coin, a 5p coin and 2 pennies! And it's Friday! Party on me! Nope, no partying. Going to TRY and start at least one of my essays. If I can get this Lit and Food essay outta the way this weekend (that's if I am uber productive) that leaves me 2 weeks, one of which is reading week, for me to try and grapple with my Modernism essay. Though that's the one my dad can probably help me out the most with. I would like to get the Lit and Food essay done, but seeing as all the good books are already gone from the library I don't know. I HATE THE LIBRARY HERE! Take me back to Thomas Cooper! He loved me.

( extremely long rant. sorry! :p )

Well, I think that's enough for today, boys and girls! Hope I haven't bored you all into comas! Just needed to vent a bit, get it all out so that I can start my work nice and refreshed! Lol.

Peace!

Good morning world. Or rather, good afternoon, as it is 12.25pm right now. I stayed up til 4am last night watching Supernatural. lol. I was going to go to bed early, then realized it was like 3 and was going to go to bed then but they put a little sneak preview of the next episode, so I had to watch that one, but then I drew the line. 4 was a bit stupid. I didn't sleep for a while because it was bloody freezing in here! Right before I went to bed I checked the temp and it was 28 outside, which means it was only marginally warmer in my room. Still, I have my giant duvet and bearskin blanket to keep me nice and toasty!

( Dreaming )

Maybe I should have a shower and get dressed? There's no one home at the moment, so I don't feel so bad because they don't know what time I actually got up! lol. Though my dad came in around 10.30 (maybe, not sure what time it was really) to say he was going into town, so he knows I was still asleep then. But really, when you have nothing to get up for, you worked your butt off at uni, then got a job straight after coming back and worked til Christmas Eve, and you haven't slept in in about 3 months, you're entitiled to some R&R right? :p

Happy New Year's Eve. 

( ... )

Yoinked from Kyle


( yoink )

I will walk into infinity
And I will live forever
You will hear my voice through the ages
You shall see my eyes
Reflecting the universe
The eternal starry skies

I contain the multitudes of humanity
I am the culmination of all creation
There is no going back now
You shall watch my ascension into the void
And you will watch the universe explode
Disintegrating into fragmented diamond skies
                                                                       --AF

So it's been a while since I posted. Things have been hectic here lately and though I have lots of down time I don't ever seem to want to blog. Probably because all I ever do is moan and who wants to always read moany blogs?!

( moaning about money )

( moaning about people hatin' on my degree. Only *I* can do that! )

Stupid people. I have felt all weird in the head today, like dizzy and sick and all manner of fun things! I think I'm just going to drink some more coffee. I've become seriously addicted to the stuff, I swear! I have at least 2 cups a day. That can't be healthy. Oh well. Who gives a shit? I'm going to give up smoking, so I might as well have one vice.

The girl in room E has left her window open and gone out. It's a windy day. This means her door has been rattling ALL DAMN DAY LONG! It's driving me bananas. But I don't want to go out or anything because it's raining and windy and horrible out there. Ugh.

( extremely boring crap )

It is Tuesday once again and that mean I had another lovely day of class. Stupid stupid class. I had to get up at 7.45 this morning to go to the doctor at 9 to make an appointment for 2.20 to be told that, look at that! I'm not depressed! In between that time I had 3 hours of 18th century bollocks to sit through. Didn't say a thing in my seminar again. My participation grade isn't going to be that great if I keep going on like this.

I'm in quite a bad mood right now. Don't really know why. Well, it's probably because I had all my boring classes to go to. They are just so shit. And I am going to have the same seminar leader for 18th next semester too. I don't know if I can stomach her for a whole year! She's so terrible! And she hardly gives you a chance to say anything before wittering on and talking over you if you try to say something. What a bitch! 

And all I have to look forward to is reading Poe's short stories! Not really the greatest thing in the world as his stories are so depressing and creepy! 

Life is hard. Especially mine.

X

I'm having a rather hard time dealing with being here in Kent this year. I haven't really told anyone here. I've said that I miss being in America, which is true and most of us year abroad returners agree that it was pretty awesome during the year away and a bit crap being back. But I don't know, I feel like it's more than that. I think I really fit into the American university system a lot better than I do the English one. There was more variety and I think I would've benefited from a wider degree. All we do here is 18th and 19th century literature, pretty much. And *English* literature at that, so it's a fairly limited frame to work within. I know there are lots of books to study, but sometimes I want more. But I mean, it's the only English degree, and of course it's going to focus on *English* stuff, but still. I did the wrong degree. I realize this now, when it's far far too late to do anything about it other than suffer my way through. Not that it makes it much easier to deal with.
( moaning )

I really hate my life sometimes.

So True Blood. LOVES IT! And I'm super excited about next week's episode! I can't believe what happened in this past episode!

( TB ranting - don't read if you haven't watched the latest episode! )
So those are just some of my thoughts on it because no one here watches it and I needed to vent a little. lol

Life is ticking along here. No job yet, which seriously bummed me out the other day, but I'm still hoping the guy from the bookstore gives me a call back soon and I can work there. That would be super. Money is tight but not too tight. Since I hardly ever go out, it's not too bad. I have £15 which I'm going to try and make last as long as possible. I spent just over £4 at the shop a minute ago, but that was on milk, 2 packs of noodles and some juice. I've got lots of noodles now. Not quite Ramen but close. I have all these 7p noodles from Tesco's which are a little on the blah side, but they do the job. The ones I bought today are just a little bit nicer, so I thought I'd have a couple of them to relieve the tedium of the blah noodles. And my aunt has promised to send me a care package soon with Ramen noodles in it! Yay! Laura asked me if I was just going to have a cupboard full of noodles and I said yes. That's what I'm going to live on. I should be able to stomach them til Christmas, because that's how long I was able to live on them in America, for the whole of the first semester. Might have to find some other cheap alternative for the second and third terms in case I get bored. Perhaps a lot of rice? We'll see.

Ciao! 

I'm kind of confused and slightly worried by these bruises I keep finding upon my person. There's one on my upper arm, one on my ankle and I just found another one on my leg. I have no idea where they came from and I haven't even been drunk lately, so they aren't UDBs! Weird.

My cold is just about driving me crazy. Every time I think it's getting better it just whips around and screws me again. I was feeling alright earlier today, but there is always a part of the afternoon where my neck starts to hurt for some reason and now I can't breathe out my nose anymore. And I can't taste anything either. It's so annoying. I'm going to run out of tissues soon! ugh. I've been sick for a week now and I think that's quite enough. Damn Freshers Flu. It's so unpleasant. I had it in the first year too, when I actually *was* a fresher! I guess the weather isn't helping much either. It's apparently 55 degrees outside, though it feels much colder. It hasn't rained today, but the past few days it has been really sunny, then poured with rain, then stopped again. It's weird. That sort of weather has been going on for weeks now in England and I don't feel that it's a good thing. Oh dear.

I've finished class for this week and the conclusion I've come to is that I'm going to probably hate this year. Just like every other year except last year. They just don't make it very interesting! There is hardly any choice in your degree and that's just stupid. You get to choose for your core modules either 18th or 19th century literature and then 2 other special modules. I chose 18th century and now I'm wondering if that was a mistake, but I didn't want to do Dickens and there was no other option. In the first year we studied Romanticism which is the fag end of the 19th century and the 19th century, in the second year we did 18th century American literature. All we come out knowing is the 18th and 19th centuries and there are other periods of literature out there! It's just aggravating because I feel like in the US there was more choice. I did Great Books of the Western World and we studied all sorts of time periods and that was way more interesting. I know that the 18th and 19th centuries are very important and that a plethora of works were published then and it was the time that the novel really came into its own, but still. It's damn boring! It's sad to say but I really think that at the end of my degree I'm going to have wasted 4 years of my life studying something that I didn't really like and then I'm supposed to go out and start my life. I should have done history. I'm fucked.

Sorry this is such a moany entry but my cold is really getting me down. I keep having coughing fits, my head hurts all the time, I can't breath and I'm tired of being sick. I would quite like to go home, not as much as I have at this time in past years, but I really can't be fucked with this year. What I really want is to go back to USC, I think. I really think my brother and I should have switched places, because I think he would have really benefited from the English education system whereas I'm better suited for the American system. Bloody stupid life!

So I found out something interesting the other day. People have a very different perception of me than the one I have of myself. Hannah told me that when she used to see me sitting in lectures, with my feet up on the chair in front of me, she used to think I was too cool for her to talk to! I used to hate lectures because I had no one to sit with! And Margot said that her friend who came to visit thought I dressed cool. What is wrong with these people?! I am *not* cool! Since when have I been cool? Well, the thing that Hannah said happened in first year, so apparently I've been working the cool, aloof thing for at least 3 years now. I had no idea! I know my cousin Donna always thought I was cool, but I just figured she was the only one!

( moaning about my cold )

Maybe I'll crawl back into bed for a bit. My head is beginning to hurt and there's really no need for me to be awake right now because all it does is make me want to eat and I don't have enough resources (ie food or money for more food) to do that. So bed it is! 

( very boring shit )

Right, gonna go collapse on my bed and feel sorry for myself.

It is 11.06am on my first real day back at Kent. I'm sitting around waiting for Hannah and Laura to arrive. And the fifth person in my house, who ever that may be, I'm waiting for them too. I have met my two other housemates, both French, whose names I can't remember, but they seem nice enough. And it might work out well for Laura, since she's a French and Drama major. We shall see.

( self-indulgent moaning )

My room is alright. It's pretty big. No where close to as nice as my apartment at BW, though. We have a shared bathroom and kitchen for 5 and another toilet downstairs. We have a fridge/freezer, kettle, stove, microwave. There's even a table and chairs in the kitchen, though it's pressed against one wall underneath the cupboards, but it was something I wasn't expecting. They hadn't finished cleaning the place when I arrived, though my room was done luckily, so we didn't have to drive around with all my things still in the car. The kitchen was disgusting. Not really the best way to see the new place you are living, that you don't even want to be living in! I've unpacked everything but I forgot to bring my posters - AGAIN! I did that in second year, got them all together and then left them at home. That was quite a blow because I kept telling myself not to do it again. Oh well, Dad said he'll send them to me.

So I'm just waiting around here now. Probably go make some coffee in a minute. Hmmm....can't wait for Laura to get here. I don't actually know how to get to campus from here and I'm scared to go by myself! Lol. 

Does anyone else start planning their LJ posts before they start writing? Because I totally do. It's probably the one and only time I start planning what I'm going to write! Not when I write essays, no, I just start them and wing it. It's weird. Maybe because I use LJ to get things off my chest or vent or whatever and you start thinking about what you want to write about....

....of course now I've forgotten what exactly I *was* going to write about! 

Well one thing has just sprung to mind - I updated iTunes again and now it's all different! Ugh. I liked the way it was abotu 2 updates ago. I don't like having to keep getting used to new things! First it was iTunes, but it was still pretty similar, then I updated Firefox and lost my skin or theme or whatever it's called and now iTunes is unrecognisable!......okay, panic over, I just changed it. It was on view as grid and that threw me. Okay, I am not that annoyed anymore.

( pathetic moaning )

I'm supposed to be packing. I went out and got one of my suitcases from the shed and everything. But my stomach hurts and I don't want to pack. Because then that means I really am leaving the day after tomorrow. I want to go but I don't at the same time. I'll just have to not get sucked into the same old pattern. I'll get a job, which I don't want to do, but I'll have to. And hey, maybe I'll make some new friends and have new things to do, so it won't be so bad. Of course, Tim isn't there anymore. And though Jo's right and I didn't see him all that often...I did see him in lectures and I would usually go see him every Friday or something, when he was there. He's said he'll come stay and that will be nice.

Well, I guess I better go pack. Definitely taking my picture of the Raptors in front of the Disney World castle! It's getting prime placement! 

This could be the summer when I grow up."

I don't think either of those things is happening, really.

( Read more... )

Nothing interesting is happening in my life at the moment. Yesterday my stepmum bought me a wok, heavy pan, and a coffee canister to take to uni on Saturday. And then I watched the kids, washed them and put them to bed while the parents went out to celebrate their 11th anniversary. My life is now just killing time until Saturday, when it'll re-start with a vengence. Though I've realized that I don't have the money to buy my books. That will be interesting, to say the least! Oh well. I'm gonna be hella poor this year. >sigh<

Being bored sucks. Being bored only 20 minutes after you woke up is even worse! It does not bode well for the rest of the day. Though I will say that my iTunes is finally playing some interesting music. A Story About A Girl by Our Lady Peace and some Kings of Leon before. There are times when I think I hate all my music but I know that has to be crazy because I have 2124 songs on there and I can't be hating them all! So I think that it's that I hate the shuffle option on my iTunes!

I have nothing interesting to report. Nothing interesting happens in my life. Yesterday I went to the pub and had half of Tim's bottle of wine and then we wandered down to St. Giles Fair. Now the thing about this fair, it's not like most American fairs. There is no fair ground where it happens and it's not one of those carnivals on the side of the road you see sometimes. There is a road, St. Giles, which is one of the main roads leading into town from the north, in fact it's THE main road leading in. Well, for 3 days (the first Monday and Tuesday of September and the Sunday before to set up) they close off this road, set up the rides in very very scarily close proximity of the buildings around. I'm not kidding, the rides are literally inches away from some of the colleges! It's one of the scariest things I've every seen and I've never been on any of the rides. The fair is also full of chavs. I don't know what the American equivalent of a chav is....they often wear track suits, are horrible horrible people! Lol. They are often deliberately rude and mean to people, to prove how "hard" they are. Anyway, there are tons of them at the fair. Ugh. I don't really like it that much but when I'm here I do go, at least once and usually only to walk through and go to the pub! (oh, it's free btw, because they can't really charge you to walk through town and you have to go through it if you want to get to North Oxford).

That's all really. I have to go get my eyes checked on Thursday and to be honest, I think I'd rather go to the dentist! I hate eye exams, I get so nervous and think I'm going to get it all wrong or something! haha. But I haven't been to the opticians in 2 years apparently. Though it's only to the one in Oxford because I went when I was in America and got new glasses and everything. So yes, oh the fun in store for me, but not today. Not today.

So I'm here watching Nellie for a few hours and I thought what better way to spend the time then by ignoring her and typing an entry on LJ! Yay for me! lol

I was just thinking how sad it is that the first thing I do in the morning is always the same. Get up; make coffee; turn on computer; check the weather; check Facebook; check MySpace; Twitter: LJ; Hotmail. Then check out QC and Penny Arcade and Homestarrunner.com. Every ding dang morning ! I guess it's better than getting up and having a shot of whiskey or a snort of coke, but still. Seems a bit pathetic, you know? But then, I did go a week in Austria without doing it, and when I was at my aunt's house I didn't really do it for a while, so it's not that bad. And I don't read all those trashy celeb blogs that I used to, though I do still check out Perez Hilton when I have nothing much else to do.

My life is so boring. I foolishly didn't get a job this summer which is probably the single most stupid thing I've done in quite some time. But the upside has been that I'm pretty much available for shenanigans and japes any night of the week and when you've got people randomly appearing and going off on world travels that can come in pretty handy! Take tonight, for example. It's the weekly pub quiz at the Turf and that usually doesn't end until 11 or something, and if I had to work I couldn't go. Instead, I have to watch Nellie now and Dan Dan this afternoon (which I get paid for!) and then go to the pub. Sam is going soon, so it's kind of his leaving thing too, I think. Tim doesn't want me to go back for Fresher's Week but I think I might. I mean, I don't have anything going on here and I could use the time to look for a job, which I am going to need like woah! That means I could be out of here in 2 and a half weeks! Which is rather exciting. I just wish I could get Laura to commit and tell me when she's going back.

Well, I've realized this is a fairly boring entry for everyone involved, especially since the people (if there are such people!) who read it don't even know the people I'm talking about in it! Oh well. Whatever. Peace